a better life ahead..

bad things happens for a reason

things getting hectic akhir2 ini..i mean, not me, but everyone around me yg seems so hectic, bosen, males..

rata2 pada bilang: “gila, gw kga demen semester 3! rasanya males bgt kuliah, capek bgt!”

dihh..gw malah sebaliknya. gw seneeeng bgt smster 3 ini.

well semester 3 ini started with a bad thing, dan tadinya bikin gw ogah2an..

but then, gw malah enjoy bgt. i found a new life, which is SO much better than before. a lot of things has changed, and bad things keep coming to my life..but hey, bad things happen for a reason, rite?

and when all good thing comes to an end, the best is yet to come..

semester ini, gw ngga males lagi kaya semester 2, ngga cabut2 kuliah lagi, ngga males ngerjain tugas lagi dan gw mulai ikut organisasi kampus..

see? things getting better and better..

waktu awal2 smster 3, gw smpt galau gundah gulana, cz a big problem crash on me and made me frustrated..

but then..

Sometimes we’ve no choice but to walk away

and that’s what i do. i walk away, i dont care anymore about what was happen on the past. that was a good time, though. but we should move on, rite?

and im happy with it. im happy with my life now. its better off this way.

see ya round, folks!

shoot. i hate it!!

this week has been such a dammit week!!

1. ada org yg ngga bertanggung jawab talks about me behind my back

sumpah ya ngga tau malu. cowo gt, tp ngmgn org d blkg!! najeeesss ada cwo mulutnya kaya cewe..lbh malah.

mudah2an aja, org yg udh prcaya ditunjukan jalan yg bnr..and i would to say thaankss to my friends for being such a nice persons and stand by my side no matter what he said about me…thank you thank you!!

2.Tugas2 yg menggila

UTS is coming soon!! di univ2 terdekat 27 oktober 2008.

ahh sial2 begini nih klo mau UTS pasti tugas2 menumpuk..thank God gw dpt dosen cihuy2.. tp ttp aja akibat dr kebiasaan gw yg suka menunda2 pekerjaan..tugas gw jd g brs2. ah sial sial siaaaall..

3. the unpredictable weather

pagi panasnya naudzubillah, eh pas sorenya ujan gede bgt. although i like the raqin so damn much, tp gw ngga demen nih, klo udaranya unpredictable gn. mana ujannya pas lagi jala mau pulang lagi..cb pas gw masih d kampus kan lbh cihuy..

4. poor indonesian train

aduh sumpah ya menteri perhubungan RI pada ngga tau apa ya kereta indonesia itu udh ngga layak jalan?!!

seminggu ini udh 3x gw merasakan kerugiannya!! sekali telat masuk kuliah, trus lainnya telat smp rumah, kemaleman gara2 kereta pd mogok!!

ahh cape cape..

5.  i have no moneyyy

ahh siaall baru awal bulan tp gw udah ngga punya uang lagii. dan keselnya most of it abisnya cuma buat makan doank. nambah2in lemak aja!! padahal banyaaak bgt barang2 yg pgn gw beliii..

baru dpt duit lagi akhir bulan..

but after all those dammit things , ada satu hal yg bikin gw seneeeeng bgt bgt!!

that guy, to whom i had a crush on..yg kata tmn gw namanya ‘krisna’ dan bikin gw smpt ilfeel dgn namanya (no offense buat yg namanya krisna yaa )

ternyata oh ternyata..

namanya adit.

bukan krisna.

and he’s the friend of my friend!! which is oh-so-menguntungkan buat gw..

so then i knew that he’s single (just broke-up, actually), he studied the communication science, jurusannya advertising. anak 2006.

and he’s definetely EMO.

gw sebnrnya ngga begitu suka sm cowo2 emo..dulu gw prnh tergila2 sma anak emo tp pas gw nntn konser MCR dan there, i finally found the real EMO guy. which is so annoying, banyak gaya, and so on and so on dah.

but im okay with that, as long as mereka ngga ganggu gw. wattaaaa!! (apa sih gw??)

and any guy, whether their emo or not, is SO MUCH better than those talking-like-a-girl guy. just find another job, dude. any other job would be better, like..buy a mirror! or take a john robert power course! or maybe u should go to pesantren and then maybe lw bisa dapet pencerahan di situ..

i feel sorry for you. pity.

so, catch ya later, folks!

awkward.

gosh.

he’s a man

but sounds like a chick

and acting like a kid

i feel sorry for you

pity.

just a piece of crap

well i wondering

i do miss something

but i dont know what it is

so then i keep wondering

did i really missed something?

or is it just a thought

about missing something

that never exist?

im so friggin happy!!

soo….

today is my 19th birthday!!

yippeee yipee yaaayyy!!!!!

im so friggin happy!!

padahal tuh ya, td malem gw smpt kesel, bt, smp nangis segala…

gara2nya tmn2 gw pd g masuk kuliah jd kita ngga jadi mau mkn2 gitu..

yaudah tadi gw akhirnya makn ber3 aja sm spupu2 gw…………

at the first time makan2 itu biasa aja..and then they’re act really awkward..bisik2, kode2 mata..

and then..

ternyata mereka beliin gw a little chocolate cake!!

aawww…gw terharuuu bgt…..

and they also beli lilin gitu…biar foto2 pake cake gt critanya..

tp gw lyat tulisan d box lilinnya:

NON BLOW OUT CANDLE

which is mean: itu lilin ngga bakal mati2 biar ditiup juga..

yaudh, akhirnya kita foto, trus abis poto tuh lilin lgsg dicelupin gt ke aer..seru bgt! smpt takut (krn kita makan d non-smoking area) smoke detector bkl nyala gt..

and then gw harus ke kampus krn ada kuliah jam 1..gw smpt bt jg c, tmn2 gw pd ngga masuk..yg masuk cm 2 org aja..

yaudh, abis kelas, gw sm tmn gw c rahma lgsg cabut ke warnet..harusnya kita ketemuan sm tmn gw c mary, tp taunya dia buru2 ya udh gw bt lg….

gw mikir:” this is the worst birthday ever. yg ngucapin lwt sms dkit bgt. di kampus jg ngga ktm siapa2..)

udah gitu gw masuk kelas yang jam 4..kita beres jam 5..

trus tmn2 gw c arman sm rahma bilang, baliknya abis maghrib aja, mau mkn dl. y udh deh. trs pas lg jln ke tmpt mkn dkt kampus ktm tmn2 lain, anak2 bogor yg sering balik brg gw..pd ngucapin..trus y udh gw ajakin makan aja d ayam bakar..

oh iya, seblm itu gw ktm sm c wi2, besties gw. tdnya gw bt tuh, dia blm ngucapin, pas ktm gw jg biasa aja. trus akhirnya dia ngucapin, heboh bgt! she kissed me 2 times in cheeks, forehead..hebohh!! trus udh gt ada tmn gw lg cowo heboh ngucapin and then he also kissed my cheek! anjrit gw kaget. ank2 pd heboh. that was my first! (mulai norak..norak..) hahahaha..emg gokil tuh org!

trus y udh, anak2 pada nungguin d ayam bakar, gw nyusul c mary, taunya dia lg ngerjain tugas di ruang sekre FISIP..trus pas ktm dia langsung heboh, cipika-cipiki, trus ngasih kado…aww awww awwww!! terharu lagiiiii……

dan di tmpt dia ngerjain itu, lg banyak anak2 komunikasi lainya (gw HI..deuuh norak!) yg ngga gw kenal..trus pd langsung nyalamin aja gitu..pdhl gw ngga kenal heheehhehehee…trus ada dosen gw lyat, trus lgsg nyanyi “happy birthday” gt..awww awww awwww terharu lg!!

udh gt ktm anak2 KB, pd inget jg ultah gw taunya heheheheee..jd maluuuuu tp seneeeeennngg!!!

y udh tuh, abis itu gw makan deh sm anak2 bogor..tar buat tmn2 gw yg laen abis uts haha lg kere soalnye hihihihi…

trus ternyata makin byk yg sms gw, ngucapin..and although one of my best friend ngga ngucapin (minal aidin juga ngga, paling dia ngga inget lah) i didnt miss a thing. that was the best birthday EVER! awlnya emg nyebelin, but it ends dramatically happy!

its prove that, everybody loves me (caaahh pede abiss!!), and im not alone. i never alone. i tought i was alone but then i know im not. i have lots and lotsa friends around me! thanks a lot guys!! *cry*

ps: yg ngucapin d fs sm d fesbuk jg banyak lho..dari org2 yg ngga gw sangka2 lg.. aww awww terharuuuu…

and i dont know why, rata2 org pd bilang: ” smoga lancar jodoh ya…cepet dapet pacar!” well thats exactly what i want, hehehehe..

btw, today i met him! yes, those eko-ac boy! and i finally know his name..krisna. weeewww. hot! (norak mode on)

see ya later, peeps!!

the end of this hectic month!!

yeaahh..lebarann sebentar lagiiii..

so, finally..akhirnya selesai juga bulan yg melelahkan ini..

pas mulai puasa pas hr prtama kuliah..balik malem mulu..its quite fun but melelahkaaannn…

btw tadinya gw smpt bingung berat waktu pertama kali balik malem, gw TAKUT bgt, pgn nangis smp tmn2 gw yg balik bareng gw naek kreta (tp ngga smpe bogor) pada bingung, krn gw ngga pernah balik malem ndirian..but now, jadinya kebiasa, ngga takut lagii hahaaha!

alhamdulillaahhh.. gw g salah ambil krs, dosen gw ajib2 smua!! )

so here’s the list:

ekopol: asooyy..tp klo ngejoke rada garing2 crunchyy.suasana kelas (isi kelas maksudnya): lumayannn

metodologi HI: gw blm prnh ktm..abisan pas dia masuk gw telat, pas gw masuk dia g ada muluu.. tp kata tmn2 gw ajiib bgt!! menyenangkan, liberal, dan dia g pake UTS. wedeehhh. suasana kelas: lumayann

perek indo (perekonomian indonesia): asik, ngajrnya enak, tp jarang ngejoke. kta tmn2 gw, nih dosen rada ‘genit’ sm cowo.. wow. suasana kelas: lumayann

Metode Penelitian Sosial: tdnya gw ambil dosen statistik gw wktu d sm. 2, pa Aris. tp taunya dpt pa sigit. yippeee! dia pan dosen sosiologi gw waktu sm. 1 . orgnya asik2 gt dah..lgian g pelit nilai cm rada strict aja..suasana kelas: lumayann

Azmen (azas2 manajemen): manteeeppp!!!!!! dosen paling lucuuu!! dari tampangnya lw g bakal nyangka dia itu LUCU sekali. dan yg paling gw demen, waktu dia blg: “saya ngga pernah ngasih nilai C. nilai B juga jarang. saya biasanya kasih A.” WAUUWW. ai LOP YU, pak! btw, mukanya kaya him damsyik. hheuu..suasana kelas: SERUU!!

Pemikiran politik barat: nih dosen enak gilaa. tp masa kta tmn gw yg ngambil dia jg, tp buat matkul lain, g enak cb. wah berarti dia modd2an orngnya. tp aseli enak bgt. g pelit nilai, itu yg pasti. trus omongannya jg menariiik sekali. suasana kelas: SERUU!!

Filsafat dan dasar2 logika: orgnya cool, calm.. g pelit nilai..trs salah satu dosen filsafat yg ‘bener’, cz kebanyakan tmn2 gw dpt dosen filsafat yg atheis. sungguh beruntung akuu..suasana kelas: aga bikin boring., untung sekls sm tmn2 gw yg menggilaaa..

Politik luar negri RI: masyaAllah. sumpah ini kelas g enak bgt. dosennya SUMPAH ngajarin kaya anak SMA. udh gtu bingungan pulaa.. kata2 favorit dia: “erm..eh..aduh, apa ya?? “udh gitu text book bgt. pelit nilai pulaa… ahh ini nih yg menghalangi gw dpt IP 4 smstr ini (gelo, kepedean..). suasana kelas: ngebosenin. kayanya abis lebaran gw bakal bawa cemilan+ komik ke kls ini biar g bosen.

mudah2an gw bs survive d smstr 3 inii…a lotsa things have changed, but im getting used too it.

btw, smstr 3 ini, gw jg ganti gaya. (najeeeess….). jadi girly2 gmnaa gitu. trus diperparah dgn gw potong rambut, g tau knp abis gw potong tuh rambut malah jd keriting curly2 gmna gt. lucu sh, hahaha. tp gw sebnrnya lbh demen sm gaya gw yg duluuu: bandshirt+skinny jeans item+ rambut acak2an kaya mau lepas. tp berhubung sepatu gw ilang..dan dgn terpaksa gw jd girly dl dah ah smp gw beli spatu lagii.. (g nyambung bgt!) lgian tmn2 gw pd demen sm gaya gw skrg. tp gw ngga demen ahh. abisan ribet..

lgian, gw lg polinlop sm org yg gayanya rada emo2 gitu! (which is aneh, cz sebenrnya gw ngga sk lyat cowo2 emo gt..tp ngga tau ya chemistry kalii) wahahahaha!! aihh gelo. gw ktm nih org d kereta, d eko ac. but i dont even know his nameee…pity. dan tidak disangka2 dia anak kampus gw juga!! dia anak 2006, gw anak 2007. ahh. mudah2an abis lebaran gw bs kenalan..but i dont wanna make the first move. its a guy thang, hoho!

so thats it people..ngga penting gw punya posting..hahahaha

SMS2 geloo…

ok..first i want to apologize cz i didnt post something useful lately. im so stressed out with my own probs, but they’re all set up now!

so now i want to talk about..SMS.

i mean, not just an ordinary one, but a freaky messages.

pasti prnah kan dpt sms berantai yg bunyinya kaya gini:

“selamat hari persahabatan! kirimkan ke 10 sahabat kamu,(termasuk aku ya!) dan kamu akan dapat pernyatan cinta hari ini!”

WOW.

besoknya dapet lg itu sms. jadi hari persahabatan itu hampir tiap hari. AMAZING. totally childish.

atau yg gini:

“peringatan 100 hari meninggalnya pak Harto. kirimkan ke 7 orang dan akan mendapatkan pulsa 75000. aku beneran udh dapet!”

edeeuhh gelooo pisan… hebat bener kirim sms doank bs dapet duit!

atau (ini biasanya dapet klo mau dkt2 pengumuman SNMPTN atau UAN):

“kirimkan sms ini ke 24 orang, maka kamu pasti akan lulus. kalau berhenti di kamu, akn terjadi yg sebaliknya”

nyebelin bgt nggak sih! udh tau orang nunggu pengumumannya dagdigdug, malah dpt yg ginian..

or like this one (yg paling gw ngga demen!):

“namaku tasya. tadi malam aku dibunuh dan badanku dimutilasi jadi 13 bagian. kirimkan sms ini ke 13 tmn kamu. kalau putus di kamu, maka nanti malam aku akan datang ke kamar kamu jam 2 mlm dgn muka rata!”

anjritt.

walau gw tau itu sangat ngga make sense, tp ttp aja sereeeumm..akhirnya gw kirim jg ke tmn2 gw. eh taunya yg gw kirimin lg ngga ada pulsa, jd deh dia marah2 sm gw..

jadi sms kaya gini ngga penting bgt. ngabis2in pulsa aja. trus yg gw pnasaran. yg bikin awalnya siapa c? pasti tuh org ngga ada kerjaan bgt dah..

dan kita, meskipun tau itu ngga penting, masih aja ttp forward kemn2..(yeahh,,me too!)

see ya ’round folks.

hectic!

i started this week with a bright smile, but in the end of the day i felt so terrible.

DAMN!!

i supposed to be happy now, i told my friends im feeling great today.

but then i know im not.

hectic life!!

btw, im dying to play some fireworks! i hope tomorrow i could make it.

see ya ’round.

*sungguh postingan yg ngga penting**

swiiit swiit syalalalaaaaaaaaaaaa

im supposed to be sad. you know, crying all day, after he left yesterday by noon. but i dunno, maybe im a bit crazy now…

wish u luck there, im gonna miss ya!!

why??

CURHAT MODE: ON

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yesterday, i met him. dia dateng buat say goodbye sm anak2.

actually, i love to see him. but im also sad. cz its the last day i saw him. then i’ll never had any chance to meet him again.

luckily, kita pulang bareng kmrn. tp gw jg ngga enak, cz ada tmn gw, who also had a crush on him too. she’s the reason why i keep lying and never tell him how i feel.

then as we walk to the train station, i remembered all the things that we’ve done. it’s not that great, but its really unforgettable.

i remembered the first day i met him: 12 september.

he’s a nice-good looking guy. but i have to hide my feeling so deep in my heart cz my best friends love him too.

and i think she deserves him more than me.

and yesterday, when i met him (finally, i havent saw him for about 3 month). he’s still the same old person that i loved.

he still love to tease me, laugh at me. the difference is: he’s about to gone away. out of this country.

and he never knew about my feeling.

i already miss you and you havent even left yet!

see ya ’round, folks.