get me away from here, im dying..

” kenapa semuanya bikin gw kesel?”

“lo yang ngga pernah puas”

“bukannya lo semua yg menuntut terlalu byk dari gw? gw cape!”

“kita ngga nuntut apa2 dari lo. lo nya aja yang ribet”

“tapi klo gw ngga gitu, siapa lagi yg mau ribet?”

“di situ salahnya lo”

“tuh kan. pada akhirnya gw lagi yg salah. im trying to be a perfect person here. at least for you guys.”

” kita ngga minta lo buat jadi perfect”

“tapi apa kalo gw ngga gt, lo smua bakal ttp ada di sn?”

“iya”

“im afraid u guys will leave me alone..”

“we wont”

“ok. ganti pertanyaan: knp di dunia ini hrs ada perbedaan? knp ngga sama aja semuanya? biar adil, biar ngga sakit ati.”

“baru dibilangin. itu cuma lo nya aja yang ngga pernah puas. lo selalu ngeluh.”

“…. tp emang kenyataannya ketidakadilan ini bikin gw sakit ati. life is so fckin unfair.”

“ya udh sih..npain dipikirin. bangga aja sm diri lo sndiri.”

“….. cerita sm lo malah bikin gw tambah bingung.”

shoot. i hate it!!

this week has been such a dammit week!!

1. ada org yg ngga bertanggung jawab talks about me behind my back

sumpah ya ngga tau malu. cowo gt, tp ngmgn org d blkg!! najeeesss ada cwo mulutnya kaya cewe..lbh malah.

mudah2an aja, org yg udh prcaya ditunjukan jalan yg bnr..and i would to say thaankss to my friends for being such a nice persons and stand by my side no matter what he said about me…thank you thank you!!

2.Tugas2 yg menggila

UTS is coming soon!! di univ2 terdekat 27 oktober 2008.

ahh sial2 begini nih klo mau UTS pasti tugas2 menumpuk..thank God gw dpt dosen cihuy2.. tp ttp aja akibat dr kebiasaan gw yg suka menunda2 pekerjaan..tugas gw jd g brs2. ah sial sial siaaaall..

3. the unpredictable weather

pagi panasnya naudzubillah, eh pas sorenya ujan gede bgt. although i like the raqin so damn much, tp gw ngga demen nih, klo udaranya unpredictable gn. mana ujannya pas lagi jala mau pulang lagi..cb pas gw masih d kampus kan lbh cihuy..

4. poor indonesian train

aduh sumpah ya menteri perhubungan RI pada ngga tau apa ya kereta indonesia itu udh ngga layak jalan?!!

seminggu ini udh 3x gw merasakan kerugiannya!! sekali telat masuk kuliah, trus lainnya telat smp rumah, kemaleman gara2 kereta pd mogok!!

ahh cape cape..

5.  i have no moneyyy

ahh siaall baru awal bulan tp gw udah ngga punya uang lagii. dan keselnya most of it abisnya cuma buat makan doank. nambah2in lemak aja!! padahal banyaaak bgt barang2 yg pgn gw beliii..

baru dpt duit lagi akhir bulan..

but after all those dammit things , ada satu hal yg bikin gw seneeeeng bgt bgt!!

that guy, to whom i had a crush on..yg kata tmn gw namanya ‘krisna’ dan bikin gw smpt ilfeel dgn namanya (no offense buat yg namanya krisna yaa )

ternyata oh ternyata..

namanya adit.

bukan krisna.

and he’s the friend of my friend!! which is oh-so-menguntungkan buat gw..

so then i knew that he’s single (just broke-up, actually), he studied the communication science, jurusannya advertising. anak 2006.

and he’s definetely EMO.

gw sebnrnya ngga begitu suka sm cowo2 emo..dulu gw prnh tergila2 sma anak emo tp pas gw nntn konser MCR dan there, i finally found the real EMO guy. which is so annoying, banyak gaya, and so on and so on dah.

but im okay with that, as long as mereka ngga ganggu gw. wattaaaa!! (apa sih gw??)

and any guy, whether their emo or not, is SO MUCH better than those talking-like-a-girl guy. just find another job, dude. any other job would be better, like..buy a mirror! or take a john robert power course! or maybe u should go to pesantren and then maybe lw bisa dapet pencerahan di situ..

i feel sorry for you. pity.

so, catch ya later, folks!

awkward.

gosh.

he’s a man

but sounds like a chick

and acting like a kid

i feel sorry for you

pity.

just a piece of crap

well i wondering

i do miss something

but i dont know what it is

so then i keep wondering

did i really missed something?

or is it just a thought

about missing something

that never exist?

im so friggin happy!!

soo….

today is my 19th birthday!!

yippeee yipee yaaayyy!!!!!

im so friggin happy!!

padahal tuh ya, td malem gw smpt kesel, bt, smp nangis segala…

gara2nya tmn2 gw pd g masuk kuliah jd kita ngga jadi mau mkn2 gitu..

yaudah tadi gw akhirnya makn ber3 aja sm spupu2 gw…………

at the first time makan2 itu biasa aja..and then they’re act really awkward..bisik2, kode2 mata..

and then..

ternyata mereka beliin gw a little chocolate cake!!

aawww…gw terharuuu bgt…..

and they also beli lilin gitu…biar foto2 pake cake gt critanya..

tp gw lyat tulisan d box lilinnya:

NON BLOW OUT CANDLE

which is mean: itu lilin ngga bakal mati2 biar ditiup juga..

yaudh, akhirnya kita foto, trus abis poto tuh lilin lgsg dicelupin gt ke aer..seru bgt! smpt takut (krn kita makan d non-smoking area) smoke detector bkl nyala gt..

and then gw harus ke kampus krn ada kuliah jam 1..gw smpt bt jg c, tmn2 gw pd ngga masuk..yg masuk cm 2 org aja..

yaudh, abis kelas, gw sm tmn gw c rahma lgsg cabut ke warnet..harusnya kita ketemuan sm tmn gw c mary, tp taunya dia buru2 ya udh gw bt lg….

gw mikir:” this is the worst birthday ever. yg ngucapin lwt sms dkit bgt. di kampus jg ngga ktm siapa2..)

udah gitu gw masuk kelas yang jam 4..kita beres jam 5..

trus tmn2 gw c arman sm rahma bilang, baliknya abis maghrib aja, mau mkn dl. y udh deh. trs pas lg jln ke tmpt mkn dkt kampus ktm tmn2 lain, anak2 bogor yg sering balik brg gw..pd ngucapin..trus y udh gw ajakin makan aja d ayam bakar..

oh iya, seblm itu gw ktm sm c wi2, besties gw. tdnya gw bt tuh, dia blm ngucapin, pas ktm gw jg biasa aja. trus akhirnya dia ngucapin, heboh bgt! she kissed me 2 times in cheeks, forehead..hebohh!! trus udh gt ada tmn gw lg cowo heboh ngucapin and then he also kissed my cheek! anjrit gw kaget. ank2 pd heboh. that was my first! (mulai norak..norak..) hahahaha..emg gokil tuh org!

trus y udh, anak2 pada nungguin d ayam bakar, gw nyusul c mary, taunya dia lg ngerjain tugas di ruang sekre FISIP..trus pas ktm dia langsung heboh, cipika-cipiki, trus ngasih kado…aww awww awwww!! terharu lagiiiii……

dan di tmpt dia ngerjain itu, lg banyak anak2 komunikasi lainya (gw HI..deuuh norak!) yg ngga gw kenal..trus pd langsung nyalamin aja gitu..pdhl gw ngga kenal heheehhehehee…trus ada dosen gw lyat, trus lgsg nyanyi “happy birthday” gt..awww awww awwww terharu lg!!

udh gt ktm anak2 KB, pd inget jg ultah gw taunya heheheheee..jd maluuuuu tp seneeeeennngg!!!

y udh tuh, abis itu gw makan deh sm anak2 bogor..tar buat tmn2 gw yg laen abis uts haha lg kere soalnye hihihihi…

trus ternyata makin byk yg sms gw, ngucapin..and although one of my best friend ngga ngucapin (minal aidin juga ngga, paling dia ngga inget lah) i didnt miss a thing. that was the best birthday EVER! awlnya emg nyebelin, but it ends dramatically happy!

its prove that, everybody loves me (caaahh pede abiss!!), and im not alone. i never alone. i tought i was alone but then i know im not. i have lots and lotsa friends around me! thanks a lot guys!! *cry*

ps: yg ngucapin d fs sm d fesbuk jg banyak lho..dari org2 yg ngga gw sangka2 lg.. aww awww terharuuuu…

and i dont know why, rata2 org pd bilang: ” smoga lancar jodoh ya…cepet dapet pacar!” well thats exactly what i want, hehehehe..

btw, today i met him! yes, those eko-ac boy! and i finally know his name..krisna. weeewww. hot! (norak mode on)

see ya later, peeps!!